I did it! I wrote 50,000 words in 30 days! I am so proud of myself and now I feel like I can do anything as long as I put a date and goal on it. It was hard to do it, but once I got into the right frame of mind, the words flowed out of me and on to the computer screen.
I am already thinking of other things to work on...I wrote a memoir for NANOWRIMO and I had wished I had not. I chose to write a memoir because I needed to get it out. It was therapeutic and horrifying. I remembered things that I had long since buried and found they were not as painful as I had thought they might be to recall.
I was able to appreciate some of what I had been through because it gave me a greater love and understanding for my mom. I also let myself feel things that I wouldn't allow myself to even think about during my ordeal. I will always carry those months and my 'near death experience' with me, it is a part of the fabric of who I am. There is no way denying it changed me and probably altered who I was going to be.
I used to be sad about that. But, now I see that by letting some of it go, and by releasing it through words, my best form of communication, it was actually freeing. The story isn't over yet. It needs to be edited and it needs to be finished. But, I set a goal, I didn't let myself quit and I achieved it with hours to spare.
I am really proud of myself and I am going to bask in this for a day or two! It feels good to have set three writing goals now and accomplished every one of them.
Next, is writing on this blog everyday. Even if it is small and significant only to me, I am going to write here everyday. And I'm changing the name! I am so much more than a number on a scale. I have overcome and achieved much more than I give myself credit for!
I am woman hear me roar!!!
love and hugs,
k
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